shAwtz

REGARDING THE INCIDENT AT DECOS 08:14:09

2009-08-16T13:27:00.000-07:00

ALRIGHT THIS IS ALL THAT I'M GOING TO SAY ABOUT THE CRAP THAT WENT ON LAST NIGHT AT DECOS.....

LAST NIGHT I WAS REQUESTED TO SHOOT A CONCERT FEATURING THE lax boys AND OTHER LOCAL ARTISTS (rob grimes AND sidewayz ent). AFTER ACCEPTING THE EVENT I WAS INFORMED OF A "GUEST VIP APPEARANCE" THAT WAS TO BE MADE BY chris brown. I CONFIRMED THAT THIS INFORMATION WAS CORRECT DESPITE RUMOR THAT IT WAS FALSE ADVERTISEMENT.

UPON APPEARING AT THE VENUE AND WATCHING THE ARTIST ENTER I DID OBSERVE THAT THE PERSON THERE WAS NOT chris brown AND IN FACT APPEARED TO BE A LOOK ALIKE. MY SUSPICION WAS CONFIRMED LATER THAT NIGHT.

DUE TO COMPLICATIONS IN VIP CROWD CONTROL WHICH HINDERED MY ABILITY TO GET THE BEST IMAGES DURING THE PERFORMANCES AND MY OVERALL IRRITATION WITH THE EVENT I CHOSE TO LEAVE THE VENUE.

WHILE I DO KNOW THE IDENTITY OF THE PERSON WHO APPEARED LAST NIGHT I WANT TO MAKE IT ADAMANTLY CLEAR THAT:

I WAS BOOKED TO SHOOT THE EVENT, I DID NOT BOOK OR HAVE ANY PART IN PROMOTING THE EVENT.

I HAVE NO KNOWLEDGE OF HOW THE CONTRACT WAS MADE, CAME ABOUT, AGREED UPON, AND/OR SATISFIED BY EITHER PARTY. OUT OF THE SENSITIVITY OF THE SITUATION NO PHOTOS WILL BE RELEASED ON anjliksol, shawtz, myspace, OR TO ANY PROMOTERS OR PEOPLE IN ATTENDANCE.

WHETHER THIS WAS DONE IN GROSS NEGLIGENCE AND UNETHICAL ADVERTISING PRACTICE, OR IT WAS A TRUE MISUNDERSTANDING AND A CASE OF SOMEONE BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF IT IS A SAD INCIDENT... AND JUST THAT.

IT IS NOT THE HABIT OR TREND OF PROMOTERS/VENUES/ IN SAN DIEGO TO UTILIZE FALSE ADVERTISING OR FAKE CELEBRITIES TO CREATE HYPE AND/OR GENERATE INCOME. I ENCOURAGE THE NIGHTLIFE PATRONS TO NOT HOLD IT AGAINST THE MAJORITY OF PROMOTERS AND EVENTS AND TO PLEASE CONTINUE TO SUPPORT NIGHTLIFE IN SAN DIEGO.

LAST NIGHT WAS JUST A SAD AND DARK INCIDENT... MY PRAYERS AND GOOD WISHES GO OUT TO ALL THOSE WHO WERE RUBBED THE WRONG WAY OR WHO ARE UNDER SCRUTINY AS A RESULT.

THANK YOU GUYS FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING AND CONTINUED SUPPORT OF ME, shawtz by anjl, AND anjliksol.

THE REAL 05:25:09

2009-05-25T23:37:00.000-07:00

SO LAST NIGHT I HEADED TO onyx/thin WITH sophisticated elegance AND franchise presents. IT WAS COOL VERY DIFFERENT TYPE OF VIBE.

HONESTLY THE DJ SUCKED BUT IDK.... HONESTLY IM NOT REALLY PLEASED WITH THE IMAGES HAT I TOOK. BUT I HAVE A FEW WINNERS..... LKE A DUMBASS I LEFT MY CAMERA IN THE CAR AND IT TOOK MY BEST FRIEND TEXTING ME TO LET ME KNOW THAT.

I DIDN'T EVEN DRINK LAST NIGHT I WAS JUST TIRED AFTER STAYING UP TALKING IN THE CAR....

IRONICALLY ENOUGH ONE OF MY FORMER CLIENTS TEAM MEMBERS TOOK LAST NIGHT AS AN OPPORTUNITY TO LET ME KNOW WHY IM FUCKED UP FOR LEAVING... I TOTALY UNDERSTAND BUT DANG.... HOW MUCH AM I SUPPOSED TO TAKE BEFORE IT JUST BECOMES UNHEALTHY. THE OPTION TO COME BACK AND WORK WITH/FOR THEM IS ON THE TABLE BUT I REALLY JUST DON'T KNOW IF IM GOING TO TAKE IT....

TODAY I ATTEMPTED TO EDIT MORE PICTURES BUT BETWEEN SLEEPING AND TRALKING TO MY PHOTGRAPHY MENTOR I DIDN'T MAKE A LOT OF HEAD WAY...... I NEED TO START PUTTING MYSELF ON A STRICT SCHEDULE AND ROUTINE... IM FUCKIN SLOPPY... IM GOING TO END UP STAYING UP TONIGHT DOING THEM AND STILL GETTING CAUGHT UP

THE REAL: 05:24:09

2009-05-24T09:49:00.000-07:00

OK... SITTING AT MY DESK THIS MORNING AT THE OFFICE I DECIDED I JUST NEED TO RELEASE THIS THING AND GET IT OVER WITH...

HONESTLY IM EXCITED BUT NOT AT THIS.... ITS ANOTHER SITE TO KEEP UP ON A REGUALAR (DAILY ACTUALLY) IN ADDITION TO anjliksol AND WORK AND MY PHOTOGRAPHY LOAD. BUT NEH.... SUCH IS LIFE

IM SOOOO MAD ABOUT FRIDAY NIGHT STILL.... I BROKE MY (s-b600) IN SOME FORM OR FASHION, PROBABLY JUST NEED A BULB REPLACED BUT THEN AGAIN THATS WHAT kurt's IS FOR. TO TOP THAT WHOLE THING OFF IM ALMOST 95% POSITIVE THAT I LOST THIS NEW ACCOUNT I HAD BEEN WORKING TO GET FOR ALMOST 3 WEEKS.

IT SUCKS NOT HAVING MY OWN CAR LIKE I USED TO ... IT MAKES GETTING PLACES 20X MORE COMPLICATED THAN NESSCARY AND HAS ME BACKLOGGED LIKE NO JOKE. IF I HAD HAD IT FRIDAY I COULD HAVE MADE IT TO MY EVENT NO PROBLEM AND WITHOUT BREAKING ANYTHING. TAKING THE BUS DOWNTOWN LEAVES ME INCREDIBLY PRESSED FOR DEPARTURE WINDOWS (WHICH MEANS I NEED TO WORK ON MY EFFECIENCY GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE AND ON MY TIME MANAGMENT TOO).

ASS KISSING IS IN ORDER IN A MAJOR WAY TO GET THAT ACCOUNT BACK.... I REFUSE TO LOSE IT FOR MORE THAN 6 MONTHS. MATTER OF FACT I REFUSE TO NOT HAVE MY CAR AND HAVE IT IN PRIME CONDITION IN 5 MONTHS (WHERE THE MONEY IS COMMING FOR TO MAKE SURE OF THAT IDK BUT HEY... THATS WHAT PRAYER IS FOR RIGHT??)

TODAY IM GOING TO TAKE AWAY FROM MY PEEPS TO REALLY GET MY SHIT TOGETHER... BUDGETS, ALL MY BACK LOGGED PHOTS, THE WHOLE 9 I CANT DO SHIT FEELING THIS UNORGANIZED AND LOSING CLIENTS AND SHIT.....

REALLY THO

THIS IS REAL.... WATCH ME MAKE IT

2009-05-24T09:19:00.000-07:00

SO THIS WAS AN IDEA GIVEN TO ME BY dj birdy bird OF star-dom ent AND IT ACTUALLY MAKES A LOT OF SENSE....

MY NAME IS brittany OR AS MANY MORE PEOPLE NOW ME anjl marie.... I'VE BEEN A GIRL WITH A CAMERA, A TALENTED GIRL WITH A CAMERA, AND AT TIMES AN AMETUER PHOTAGRAPHER... BUT THAT WAS THEN....

NOW IM TRULY ON THE RISE TO MAKE IT IN THE ENTERTAINMENT AND JOURNALISM WORLD AS A LEGIT PHOTAGRAPHER.

YEAH SURE I DO A LOT OF OTHER THINGS (MODEL,PROMOTE, WRITE, WORK, STUDY, AND A SLEW OF OTHERS) BUT PHOTOGRAPHY IS MY PERSONAL VERSION OF KUSH. IT CALMS ME DOWN AND JUST LEVELS ME OUT... I GET LOST IN IT AND IT GETS LOOSED IN ME.

ALMOST TWO YEARS AGO I WAS ON THE WAY TO BEING THE NEXT BIG PHOTOGRAPHER ON THE NIGHT SCENE OUT HERE... I HAD MORE CLIENTS THAN I COULD HANDLE, A FOLLOWING, AND A BIG ASS HEAD. IT TOOK MY EGO GETTING SHOT FOR ME TO REALIZE THE GROSS MONSTER I WAS BECOMING AND TAKE A STEP BACK...

THINGS NEVER WERE THE SAME AND ITS BEEN A HARD ROAD TO GET SEMI BACK TO WHERE I USED TO BE... AND TRUST ME IN THE PROCESS LIFE ONLY GOT HARDER:

NO CAR NOW
I WORK FULL TIME
IM ABOUT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL
I'VE LOST AND ALIENATED FRIENDS AND CLIENTS
AND THERE ARE A BUNCH OF NEW PHOTOGRAPHERS, NEW GOOD ONES WHO HAVE ENTERED THE GAME

BUT SOME THINGS ARE STILL GOOD. I STILL HAVE A FOLLOWING, IVE UPGRADED MY EQUIPMENT AND MY DRIVE IS STRONGER THAN EVER.

IM DETERMINED TO MAKE IT... DESPITE WHATS GOING ON IN MY REAL LIFE IM DETERMINED TO ACHIEVE MY DREAM. THIS IS THE OPPORTUNITY FOR YOU TO SEE IT HAPPEN.

DIFFERENT FROM anjliksol HERE MY FOCUS IS STRICTLY PHOTOGRAPHY: THE GOOD SHOOTS, THE BAD EVENTS, THE ACCOUNTS I CAN'T BELIEVE I LANDED, DAYS WHEN MY 9-5 INTERFERE WITH MY DREAM, STRUGGLING TO GET AROUND, AND HOW I BALANCE IT ALL.

MY REAL LIFE,MY REAL STRUGGLE, MY REAL DEVELOPMENT, MY REAL RISE.